As I opened my eyes this morning I felt a familiar pain in my back and the trigger points in my lower back on both the right and left sides. I’m only 53 yet on this morning I felt like I am 100. It’s Fall and there is a cold crispness in the air. Most people love Fall, not me as it means possibly more pain coming. Having said all of that. Fall is a double edged sword for me. I love the baking and also cooking those special Fall Recipes. The cold and damp weather of the PNW also means a possible bout with my Fibromyalgia.
This year I am doing my best to have a positive attitude. I have decided to not project into the future. I am hoping it will be a bit different this year. Last February I went to a Fibromyalgia Specialist. A Doctor who is more along the Holistic lines of Medicine. I changed my diet significantly and am taking supplements that are helping with my pain. I may wake up with a significant amount of pain yet after I get up and move around, take my medicine and supplements I begin to feel better. I also exercise. I walk aggressively on trails 3-5 days a week. On my off days I have an upper body work out I do. I also know this is all a choice/decision. I desire to live an active productive life. That requires me to do quite a few things that on some days I would rather trash. Yet I know that I am in a battle with this disease every day. I cannot take one day off. If I do it will take advantage. Sometimes it gets tiring(that’s another post) yet in the end when I am blessed with a level 3-5 Day rather than a 10 and above it is a beautiful day.
I have a girlfriend who has chronic pain. She has a very good saying. “I’m going to be in pain whether I’m in bed or I’m being active, so I might as well be active” I truly agree and have made that a major point in my life. It is also better that I do not project into the future. Why? I think that through experience I have found out that if I prepare myself for the horrible Winter pain I will continue to think about it and almost live there. It becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Our minds are so powerful. Where our hearts are that’s our truth. So I do what I need to control my pain and exercise and eat healthy. I take life as it comes. I know this is a worn out phrase yet there is no other way to say it. I do my best to not take life too serious. I try not to get wound up over the little things. I take care of it and move on. Fibro is a disease driven by stress so Im trying to just be joyful in my life. Deal with the things that need to be dealt with in my life and do what needs to be done so it doesn’t happen again. I do my best to avoid Drama. As no one is perfect I am not always able to accomplish the above. Having someone who I am accountable to helps. Someone who is not your spouse but a best friend, a co-worker, or a family member. Someone who can help you step off of the Hamster’s wheel when you are getting spun up. Someone you can really trust. Usually a spouse is too close to the situation or to you. It can cause contention.
Today, is a beautiful day and as I stand here typing this, (yes, standing), I am not feeling any real pain. So right now this very minute life is good. It could change so I’m going to enjoy this time of no pain and not project about how it may be in an hour or so. Today is a joyous day. God is good. Im hoping all of you are having a joyous day as well. We need each other to make it through with this disease. It is possible to be out of pain as well as active. So join me in choosing/deciding to be Healthy, Happy, and as Pain Free as Possible.
Let me know how you all are feeling today. I would like the truth yet try not to rant and try to end on a positive note if possible. God Bless!