My Daily Battle

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I’ve been in quite the Battle the past few weeks.  My pain levels have limited my ability to complete most tasks that I do in my Daily Life.  It has been quite a while since my pain has been so debilitating.  I live with pain on a daily basis yet it is rare that I have pain so debilitating.  Most of my trigger points have been activated and causing sore muscles and joints.  It is rare for me to not be able to do my walks or to do them with my joints and my muscles in my legs bothering me so much.  I always love my walks and the past couple of weeks I haven’t been able to complete them in a way that I normally do.

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The issue with this when it happens day after day after day it is a struggle to keep yourself emotionally and mentally fit.  My body gets so tired and worn out from the pain.  At the two week point it is so hard to not just mentally and emotionally give in.  I did give in for a short period of time a good cry and a bit of yelling at the wall, then I had to get back to the battle.  The battle itself gets overwhelming.

Im feeling a bit better today.  Trying not to overdo myself. With God in my life I have had some joy through the pain.  I just try to remember how much He loves me.  I know it is ironic.  Why do I, or would I love and be loved by a God who has made me so sick?  I don’t completely know why God has given me or others this sort of affliction.  Yet what I do know is when I walk in His Love and Grace.  I also realize that He loves me more than love was created to be.  Knowing all of that brings me joy and helps me to want to keep fighting this dreaded Fibromyalgia.  I strive to walk in His light.   Like any soldier who is in battle like this we do wane in our mental and emotional state.

I am working as hard as I can to hang in there and do what is necessary in my life.  It is the only way I will survive this life.  Others have worse so I also do try to be grateful every day that God has spared me of so much worse things In this life.

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Brain Fog!

This is an excerpt from the book; The Fatigue and Fibromyalgia Solution by Jacob Teitelbaum, M.D.

This is an amazing book and has it has helped to validate so much of what I am going through, besides the pain, with my FM as well as the Fatigue that accompanies it.  The thing I like most about this book is that it isn’t written in medical ese.  It is written in language that any of us lay people could understand.  Okay here is the excerpt from this book on Brain Fog.

People with FMS (Fibromyalgia Syndrome) often suffer from poor short term memory and difficulty with word finding and word finding and word substitution.  Sometimes you may even have to think for a moment to remember your children’s names!  About one – third of people will also have rare brief episodes of disorientation lasting thirty seconds to two minutes.  These most often happen when taking an exit ramp while driving or making a turn in a store aisle.  It can feel frightening, but it is not dangerous and passes quickly.

Brain Fog is one of the most frustrating symptoms for some people and is often the scariest.  Many people are afraid that they are developing Alzheimer’s disease.  But this is not the case.  A simple way to differentiate between brain fog and dementia is that with brain fog you my constantly forget where you left the keys.  With Alzheimer’s disease, however you may forget to use your keys.  They are not the same, and the brain fog also routinely improves.

Just these few paragraphs really helped me to understand what was happening in my Brain.  I am afraid as my mother had senility form of Dementia and also had Aphasia from having small strokes.  When I have some of these symptoms pop up I get so worried.  This really helped me to be able to put it into perspective and to be able to realize this is part of FM not Dementia.  Hope it helps someone out there as well.

If any of you suffer from Brain Fog Please leave a comment.  I feel that the more we pull together the better!  I know each one of us has such an individualized story yet that doesn’t mean we cannot support each other.  I want to be a support for you all out there.  I also know that there are other chronic pain disorders that also suffer from Brain Fog so please feel free to post here.  You do not have to just have FM to post here.  There are labels they try to make us live within in all the Chronic Pain issues.  We are people NOT labels!  Don’t get me on my Soap Box LOL!!!

Thanks for reading my Blog I am so grateful for all of my followers and viewers alike!

The Journey Doesn’t Have To Taste Bad!

Serves: 4

Total time: 4-5 hrs on high or 7-8 hours on low

 

Ingredients:

  • 1.5-lb. pork loin
  • 3 large apples, peeled, cored and chopped
  • 1 onion, sliced
  • 1 cup apple cider
  • Salt and pepper

Instructions:

  1. Place the pork loin into a crockpot. Pour the apples, onion slices and apple cider over top. Sprinkle with salt and pepper. Cook on high for 4 to 5 hours or low for 7 to 8 hours. Cut the pork into quarters and serve, pouring the apples, onion and remaining sauce over the top.

This is a very delicious recipe for this time of year.  Still very chilly outside this recipe from pipandebby.com, this recipe will warm your soul with very little effort on your part.  It will seem like you slaved all day over the stove.  My kind of recipe.

ENJOY!

Ten Things of Thankful

This evening the Ten Things of Thankful is really a good exercise for me.  Most of my family is sick with this weird virus that is going around right now.  It always makes me feel better to put together a gratitude list.  I am hoping this helps.  It always seems when I get sick it throws me into a flare.  My legs seem to be bothering me the most this time. It is that horrible nerve pain at the surface of my skin.  Do not touch me, is my mantra when this happens.  I am hoping I will start to feel better in a couple of days.

I think this week since I am not quite up to Par I will mostly just be doing a list.

1.  I am Thankful that God has blessed me with Creativity to make something from nothing.

2.  I am Thankful for all the amazing gifts I received this year for Christmas.

3.  I am Thankful for my friends who stick beside me through thick and thin.

4.  I am Thankful for my Sister.  I think if we lived closer together we would be joined together at the hip.

5.  I am Thankful for a new printer I am sure I will be over my head with it yet I am excited to learn how it works.

6.  I am Thankful to be instructing one of our local MOPS Group to put together 3 Greeting Cards on Friday Morning.

7.  I am Thankful for a Warm Bed to sleep in.

8.  I am Thankful for Our Electricity this past year it hasn’t gone out but a couple of times for no more than an hour.

9.  I am Thankful for my three Beautiful Grandchildren and so proud of them as well!

10.  I am so so Thankful for my son and his wife who are so kind and loving to me.

Hopefully I will be feeling better next week and I will be more in the writing mood.

Tuesday’s Treasures

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This week I saw some amazing quotes on Facebook.  They really made me think. I wanted to share them with you to see what you think as well.This first one popped up on facebook from one of my friends.  It is true.  You would think that boundaries takes your freedom away.  God is a parent.  A parent of us.  He is our Father.  He only cares about our wellbeing and He wants us to be happy.  He gives us boundaries for our good.  The boundary is put down because he not only wants us to be happy, he wants us to be safe.  God also does not want us to emotionally hurt ourselves or other people.  If we follow the boundaries we will be happy and have the wonderful blessings in life.  Freedom will be there for us.  The spirit lives in our hearts.  The blessings will set our hearts free the emotional and spiritual freedom will actually make our hearts sing.  Please tell me what you think about it.

“Did you know that having boundaries actually gives us freedom? When my daughter, Aster, was just getting tall enough to reach everything she’s not supposed to, she discovered the drawer where we keep scissors and safety pins. And, she was determined to touch every dangerous object in there.</p><br /><br /><br /><br />
<p>So of course we put child locks on the drawers and cabinets that were now within her reach. At first I felt bad; like we were taking away all this freedom from Aster, but then I realized the new limits would actually give her more freedom to roam around the kitchen safely.</p><br /><br /><br /><br />
<p>In the Bible, King David talked about how he wanted to walk in the path of God’s commands because they set his heart free. His words remind me that God’s boundary lines show us where it’s safe to go. So, I’m learning to embrace what may feel like limits, because within God’s boundaries, my heart is free!” - Renee Swope</p><br /><br /><br /><br />
<p>From today’s P31 Radio Show, “Everyday Life with Lysa & Renee” — a production of Proverbs 31 Ministries

 

 

I’m sorry to just give you a link to this one.  I tried to copy it so many times yet was unable to post the video.  This is my husbands second or third cousin Dylan.  Who is in the Pacific Northwest Ballet.  They are presently doing the Nutcracker.  This is only a 10 second cut of him doing an amazing jump with no intro into it.  He jumped so high I was stunned.  Please just click on this you will love to see him.  Again sorry for the technical difficulties.  Cut and Paste if you need to.  Enjoy!