My Daily Battle

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I’ve been in quite the Battle the past few weeks.  My pain levels have limited my ability to complete most tasks that I do in my Daily Life.  It has been quite a while since my pain has been so debilitating.  I live with pain on a daily basis yet it is rare that I have pain so debilitating.  Most of my trigger points have been activated and causing sore muscles and joints.  It is rare for me to not be able to do my walks or to do them with my joints and my muscles in my legs bothering me so much.  I always love my walks and the past couple of weeks I haven’t been able to complete them in a way that I normally do.

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The issue with this when it happens day after day after day it is a struggle to keep yourself emotionally and mentally fit.  My body gets so tired and worn out from the pain.  At the two week point it is so hard to not just mentally and emotionally give in.  I did give in for a short period of time a good cry and a bit of yelling at the wall, then I had to get back to the battle.  The battle itself gets overwhelming.

Im feeling a bit better today.  Trying not to overdo myself. With God in my life I have had some joy through the pain.  I just try to remember how much He loves me.  I know it is ironic.  Why do I, or would I love and be loved by a God who has made me so sick?  I don’t completely know why God has given me or others this sort of affliction.  Yet what I do know is when I walk in His Love and Grace.  I also realize that He loves me more than love was created to be.  Knowing all of that brings me joy and helps me to want to keep fighting this dreaded Fibromyalgia.  I strive to walk in His light.   Like any soldier who is in battle like this we do wane in our mental and emotional state.

I am working as hard as I can to hang in there and do what is necessary in my life.  It is the only way I will survive this life.  Others have worse so I also do try to be grateful every day that God has spared me of so much worse things In this life.

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Tuesday’s Treasures

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Everyday I am so keenly aware that I need people and most of all I need God in my life.  I tried to do things all by myself for many years and no matter what I did doing it all along without the Lord as well as support people in my life.  Life just gets harder and harder and the hole in my sole larger and larger.  The only thing that ever worked filling my soul was God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.  Life is so much better as well as easier now.

I am hoping that everyone has had an amazing week.  I am hoping that our internet troubles are behind us and that I will be back on line with my Blog next week.  Thank you so much for your patience.

 

Ten Things of Thankful

This evening the Ten Things of Thankful is really a good exercise for me.  Most of my family is sick with this weird virus that is going around right now.  It always makes me feel better to put together a gratitude list.  I am hoping this helps.  It always seems when I get sick it throws me into a flare.  My legs seem to be bothering me the most this time. It is that horrible nerve pain at the surface of my skin.  Do not touch me, is my mantra when this happens.  I am hoping I will start to feel better in a couple of days.

I think this week since I am not quite up to Par I will mostly just be doing a list.

1.  I am Thankful that God has blessed me with Creativity to make something from nothing.

2.  I am Thankful for all the amazing gifts I received this year for Christmas.

3.  I am Thankful for my friends who stick beside me through thick and thin.

4.  I am Thankful for my Sister.  I think if we lived closer together we would be joined together at the hip.

5.  I am Thankful for a new printer I am sure I will be over my head with it yet I am excited to learn how it works.

6.  I am Thankful to be instructing one of our local MOPS Group to put together 3 Greeting Cards on Friday Morning.

7.  I am Thankful for a Warm Bed to sleep in.

8.  I am Thankful for Our Electricity this past year it hasn’t gone out but a couple of times for no more than an hour.

9.  I am Thankful for my three Beautiful Grandchildren and so proud of them as well!

10.  I am so so Thankful for my son and his wife who are so kind and loving to me.

Hopefully I will be feeling better next week and I will be more in the writing mood.

Ten Things of Thankful

I decided to do this event to become a part of another blogging community.  I’m excited to go back to basics.  I need to remember that in every situation good or bad there are things to be Thankful for.

In having Fibromyalgia I need to remember that no matter how I am feeling I can be Thankful and that always seems to lift my spirits.  This will become a weekly Post for me.  Come by on Saturday and or Sunday and get inspired to write your own Thankful List.  Please feel free to share it with me in the comment section.

This week it was easy as Thanksgiving just past us by and my spirits are up even though over night the temperature plummeted.  We got a bit of snow.

Here is my list.  They are in no particular order:

I am Thankful for a Husband who takes care of me and lives with a women in a state of chronic pain.  He deals with my ups and downs.  I am Thankful for my Sons.  They are Gods Treasure given to me.  I take them for granted way too much.  God, He is the person that I am Thankful for the most.  Thank goodness He is in control of my life because I do not do a very good job myself.  I am Thankful for Jesus as He gave His life for me.  I cant imagine how He was able to sacrifice Himself like He did so we could be free.  I am Thankful for my Grandchildren.  All three of them are special in their own way.  I am Thankful for my Brother and Sister.  I would be lost without them.  My Sister especially.  She is the only person in my life who loves me totally unconditionally.  I am Thankful for my closest friend.  She is someone who tells me the truth no matter what.  She also is a great pal to go clothes shopping with as she will tell me when something doesn’t look good on me.  I’m Thankful that our Freezer and Pantry are full of food.  I also am Thankful that my Husband has a good job so that I do not have to work.

This was an amazing Challenge/Event to do and I am looking forward in continuing on with this every week.  Again, let me know what 10 things you are Thankful for.  Especially if you are down, in pain, or just plain had a bad week.  It really will help to find the things you are grateful for even if it is just that you are breathing.  This is a mood shifter.  Don’t get me wrong.  If you are in a great mood I would like to hear because it will help to life the spirits of others.  Have a great week everyone!!