My Daily Battle

I’ve been in quite the Battle the past few weeks.  My pain levels have limited my ability to complete most tasks that I do in my Daily Life.  It has been quite a while since my pain has been so debilitating.  I live with pain on a daily basis yet it is rare that I have pain so debilitating.  Most of my trigger points have been activated and causing sore muscles and joints.  It is rare for me to not be able to do my walks or to do them with my joints and my muscles in my legs bothering me so much.  I always love my walks and the past couple of weeks I haven’t been able to complete them in a way that I normally do.

The issue with this when it happens day after day after day it is a struggle to keep yourself emotionally and mentally fit.  My body gets so tired and worn out from the pain.  At the two week point it is so hard to not just mentally and emotionally give in.  I did give in for a short period of time a good cry and a bit of yelling at the wall, then I had to get back to the battle.  The battle itself gets overwhelming.

Im feeling a bit better today.  Trying not to overdo myself. With God in my life I have had some joy through the pain.  I just try to remember how much He loves me.  I know it is ironic.  Why do I, or would I love and be loved by a God who has made me so sick?  I don’t completely know why God has given me or others this sort of affliction.  Yet what I do know is when I walk in His Love and Grace.  I also realize that He loves me more than love was created to be.  Knowing all of that brings me joy and helps me to want to keep fighting this dreaded Fibromyalgia.  I strive to walk in His light.   Like any soldier who is in battle like this we do wane in our mental and emotional state.

I am working as hard as I can to hang in there and do what is necessary in my life.  It is the only way I will survive this life.  Others have worse so I also do try to be grateful every day that God has spared me of so much worse things In this life.

The Journey Doesn’t Have To Taste Bad

 

 

Prep time
15 mins
Cook time
20 mins
Total time
35 mins
Tender strips of beef cooked in a rich sauce, inspired by P.F. Chang’s!
Author: Tiffany
Recipe type: Main Dish
Cuisine: Asian-Inspired
Serves: 3-4
Ingredients
  • 1-2 pounds beef, cut into strips (suggestion: flank steak or stir fry beef strips)
for the marinade
  • ½ teaspoon baking soda
  • 1 teaspoon sugar
  • 1 tablespoon corn starch
  • 1 tablespoon soy sauce (Tamari Sauce for Gluten Free)
  • 1 teaspoon rice vinegar
  • 2 tablespoons vegetable oil
for the sauce
  • 4 teaspoons vegetable oil
  • 1½ teaspoons ground ginger
  • 2 tablespoons minced garlic
  • 1 cup soy sauce (Tamari Sauce for Gluten Free)
  • 1 cup water
  • 1⅔ cup brown sugar
  • 3 tablespoons cold water + 1½ tablespoons corn starch
  • Optional: sliced green onions, sesame seeds, rice
Instructions
  1. Combine all marinade ingredients in a smal bowl and whisk until combined. Pour into a zip-lock back with beef strips, seal and chill 1 hour or overnight.
  2. Drain marinade from zip-lock and set beef aside.
  3. In a medium sauce pan combine sauce ingredients. Stir and heat over medium high heat until brown sugar has dissolved. While sauce is cooking, whisk together corn starch and water in a small bowl until corn starch is dissolved. Bring sauce to a boil, then reduce heat to medium low and stir in corn starch-water mixture. Allow sauce to thicken slightly, then remove from heat. In a large pan or skillet, cook beef strips over medium high heat until cooked through (5-8 mins) turning strips over throughout to ensure even cooking, reduce heat to medium. add ½-1 cup of sauce (depending on how “saucy” you want your beef). Stir and cook 1-2 minutes longer. Serve over rice with green onions and sesame seeds if desired.
Notes
This recipe makes a large batch of the sauce, more than you will need for your beef! You may half the recipe if you’d like, or we like to use the extra over rice!*Recipe adapted from Rainy Day Gal and Favorite Family Recipes
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Hope you enjoy the recipe!!

 

Brain Fog!

This is an excerpt from the book; The Fatigue and Fibromyalgia Solution by Jacob Teitelbaum, M.D.

This is an amazing book and has it has helped to validate so much of what I am going through, besides the pain, with my FM as well as the Fatigue that accompanies it.  The thing I like most about this book is that it isn’t written in medical ese.  It is written in language that any of us lay people could understand.  Okay here is the excerpt from this book on Brain Fog.

People with FMS (Fibromyalgia Syndrome) often suffer from poor short term memory and difficulty with word finding and word finding and word substitution.  Sometimes you may even have to think for a moment to remember your children’s names!  About one – third of people will also have rare brief episodes of disorientation lasting thirty seconds to two minutes.  These most often happen when taking an exit ramp while driving or making a turn in a store aisle.  It can feel frightening, but it is not dangerous and passes quickly.

Brain Fog is one of the most frustrating symptoms for some people and is often the scariest.  Many people are afraid that they are developing Alzheimer’s disease.  But this is not the case.  A simple way to differentiate between brain fog and dementia is that with brain fog you my constantly forget where you left the keys.  With Alzheimer’s disease, however you may forget to use your keys.  They are not the same, and the brain fog also routinely improves.

Just these few paragraphs really helped me to understand what was happening in my Brain.  I am afraid as my mother had senility form of Dementia and also had Aphasia from having small strokes.  When I have some of these symptoms pop up I get so worried.  This really helped me to be able to put it into perspective and to be able to realize this is part of FM not Dementia.  Hope it helps someone out there as well.

If any of you suffer from Brain Fog Please leave a comment.  I feel that the more we pull together the better!  I know each one of us has such an individualized story yet that doesn’t mean we cannot support each other.  I want to be a support for you all out there.  I also know that there are other chronic pain disorders that also suffer from Brain Fog so please feel free to post here.  You do not have to just have FM to post here.  There are labels they try to make us live within in all the Chronic Pain issues.  We are people NOT labels!  Don’t get me on my Soap Box LOL!!!

Thanks for reading my Blog I am so grateful for all of my followers and viewers alike!

Tuesday’s Treasures

Tuesday’s Treasures is a new Feature I’m starting.  I wanted it to be inspirational.  Poetry, Prose, Music, Videos, Testimonies.  Anything that might be uplifting and helpful on a bad day, bad week or just something to contemplate and really think about.  To think in a deeper way than just looking over it or listening to it and moving on.  Let’s dig a bit deeper and discuss what it means to us.  If you would like we can participate in a discussion about what the Post means to you.  Others please feel free to also comment on someone else’s comment, after all that is what a conversation is. I value everyone’s opinion unless it is disrespectful. so in a cheesy way I will say without further aido please enjoy the first of the Tuesday’s Treasures.

 

 

This first poem is written by a Woman in my Church Family:

Oh to such that awaits thee

Compassion, Comfort

Embrace Thee

His love is all consuming,

Just believe and you shall receive

Everlasting unto Thee.

by Theresa Montalvo

 

 

Have we lost the true meaning of giving?  Do we know or even understand the heart connection in giving.  Do we understand the symbolism of why we give gifts at Christmas?  This is a very good quote from David Dunn on giving.  It really made me stop and think.

If we think of our heart,

rather thank our purse,

as the reservoir ,

of our own giving,

We shall find it,

full all the time

by David Dunn

 

In all the hustle and bustle of Christmas it is so so easy to get overwhelmed.  Especially those of us who have chronic pain issues.  I must be truthful and say that I have really fought just giving in this Christmas.  Sometimes I get so tired of the battle.  If I were really honest I am right on the edge right now.  I still am able to see the positive in all things yet I can feel the depression trying to beat down the door.  I definitely could and can say that I feel a good cry coming on.  It definitely can be cathartic for me.  Sometimes its God’s way of moving the clouds out of the way so that I can see Him more clearly.  So that If there truly is a storm and not just one I made up in my head.  I can grab ahold of Him and ride it out.  I constantly need Him to be my guide so as to keep myself out of trouble yet there are those times that I am holding on for dear life.  When David Crowder came out with this song I loved it as it so spoke to me.  The upbeat music gives you the same energy to fight on as an anthem does.  It reminds me of who really is in charge and how he truly does care and love me through Thick and Thin.

 

 

Catch you all next week as for Tuesday’s Treasures.  Before then lets have a conversation on how you think and feel about this weeks Tuesday Treasures.  Thank you for stopping in.

Inspiration

When I have not been able to sleep well for several days, I end up with such horrible brain fog that I need some inspiration to help me. I want to just go back to bed and pull the covers over my head.  Today was one of those days.  Music is an amazing inspiration to me.  Below are the songs that helped inspire me.  Enjoy them and I hope they inspire you as well.

It is so frustrating when you have Brain Fog.  You feel like there is a thick fog in your head.  I had to take my son to work and I don’t know how I got us there and home in one piece.  It is in these really frustrating situations that I  have to put all my eggs in God’s Basket.  I have to trust that He will Carry Me.

I do know that my spirituality has gotten me through so many rough times. When I didn’t have the strength to make it on my own. It saved me from drowning in a sea of negativity.  It is a huge relief when I realized that God is always there to help me no matter what.  He never changes his opinion of me.  All He asks is that I give Him my heart.  So I finally surrendered all to Him.  I will tell you though I pick it back up not realizing it, and have to surrender it again.  I know this is part of the human condition.  Sometimes I can be stubborn so I have to get myself to the point where I am ready to surrender myself and my problems again.  (I will say that I am responsible for doing my end of the footwork.  In no way do I believe that God always just drops things in my lap.  Sometimes it happens, not all the time though).

Let me know what you thought.  Let’s have a conversation.